The Surrender- inspired from the Manipuri song with the same title.

Whole world standing against you,
I also have enmity against you.

For few questions, stood right in front of you.
Was demanding for an answer, why did you lay your heart out to me?

Thus, have you been holding my memoir considering me as a bitch?

I am a married woman with a committed soul for the lifetime,
though never realised what love is.

Your footsteps and essence made my heart beat restlessly, unconsciously.

Couldn't hold back the feelings at your gentle behaviour.

Is it the bitch called love, people have been talking about?

Gratified with your response,
Charmed with your behaviour,
that loved my dear ones, and
the one who taught me love, as well.

There won't be anyone valued more than you,
come closer to me,
hold me close and tight
and let the feelings flow off me.

Leading life's joirney, go ahead towards you destiny.
'll be waiting for you to return, eying with lots of love.
Holdin tightly this poor soul, filled with your emotions, bearing all the hardness and pain, amidst all toils and troubles.

Hey! Kindful enemy...
Hey! Soldier of love...
Hey! Life of my soul...

A friend so wonderful...

It was sad. It was painful. It screamed the heart out. It told the story expressed once. Damn, a friend shared his old story which he has kept as a secret for years. Someone to share a secret like this takes a lots of courage and trust. If I have to ever trust anyone, there wouldn't be anyone to whom I can share such things but this friend trusted upon us.

He had his worst phase of life. He bled his heart. He stood, stumbled and raised again. His story reminded me again of certain incidents happened. Leave it... This friend of mine has gained lots more respect from me. Well, he is a very bright student, very helpful. He never asks for anything but he's always ready to lend his hand for support.

He's not the only one who faces problems in life but he's one among the few who took a stand and still let nothing fall when everything was under the ground.

he cried his heart out once in the campus. Knew it could be something about a girl but never intended to ask 'cause he did not want to share.

Feeling so bad about his past and the happiness he lost. he is blaming himself for all the lost not his but his loved ones. Such a person is a gem, hard to find and rare to be searched.

me, being just a normal person who knows how to live a simple life and if nothing's right then just forget it, is feeling so tough today.

i wish he never falls for such a tragic phase again. To cheer him up and make him feel lively again will always be another motive...

Friends are what for other than making their friends happy. To let the tears flow but also to replace those tears with a smile back again...

Gone are the days...

Seeing people around with their friends...

Sitting in groups sharing the last moments...

Lovers walking the last few rounds...

Steps, we ever cherished...

where people met and friends made...

A place we called 21 steps,

our small family ever celebrated friendship...

today it's deserted...

it's still filled with new people and other friends...

but the souls that put life to it,

are leaving the space empty...

It might rain, it might be sunny...

It might be crowded, it might be empty...

there's always a voice that lingers around...

when people around share laughs,

or celebrate their friendship...

I wished if life could have been that way ever...

for me and my friends...

When the lovers play with each other...

A smile always explodes but certain tears always dropped...

for the lovers I ever treasured...

A silence is all that I can express...

Everybody knows how it feels...

It's been a long time...

certain friends are not worth keeping in touch,

for their departure hurts like a knife across the heart...

Everybody was ready and knew,

that one day we have to bid farewell...

but when the moment arrives,

it's like holding the sands at the shore, tightly

not wanting to let it flow...

still it gets out of our grip...

losing and getting vanished amidst the sands at the shore...

A daily GOOD-BYE was very simple,

for it brought a HI the next day...

but this GOOD-BYE, never want to bid..

for it really meant, forever...

Few things I cared...

I cared for none when I was born...

I cared only for my appetite as I grew up...

i cared only for my mother's love when I start recognising them...

I cared only for my parents, bothers and sisters when I realised they are my own...

I cared only for my family when I felt they are the ones who are going to be by my side whole life...

I cared only for everybody's fingers which I have ever hold on to, to walk...

I cared only for those hands who would feed me when I'm hungry and give a tap whenever I cry...

I cared only for the friends who sat next to me in my kinderagrten, with whom only I could talk...

I cared only for my benchmates when I realise we could share our lunches together..

I cared only for the few friends when I felt the need to be among them...

I cared only for the teachers when I realise they are going to make me topper..

I cared only for my school when I learned this is the place which will build my base...

I cared only for the people who would share laughter and joy when I remember them in my bad days...

I cared only for money when I become a teenager and need more pocket money..

I cared only for fun when I was a teenage and friends were all around...

I cared only for the examination results only when it's the time to be out...

I cared only for those vacations when I was going crazy for my studies...

I cared only for one girl when I realised she's the one I only love...

I cared only for her acceptance when I learnt she doesn't love me...

I cared only for a new beginning when I was down and broken..

I cared only for a survival when I was amidst an unknown crowd...

I cared only for my goal when I set it right and started marching ahead..

I cared only for few people's happiness when I realise I could be the reason to spoil their life...

I cared only for some betterment by me when I felt to do good for someone would let me feel better for my sins...

I cared only for making few friends when I spent most beautiful phase of my life with them..

I cared only for their better life when I realised I could be a reason for any fall back...

I cared only for my better future when I see my parents smiling whenever I succeed...

I cared only for my dear ones when I read their unhappy minds and losing grips...

I cared only for someone new when I suddenly fall from the present...

I cared only for her only acceptance when I saw the gapping distance...

I cared only for some hug when I see nothing's right and good happening around me...

I cared....

I cared..

I cared...

but only this much...

Move on...

We did not get all our favourite toys, still we moved on and played...

We did not get our favourite food, still we moved on without starving...

We did not get a bicycle when we wanted, still we moved on and went for rides...

We did not get best looking clothes, still we moved on and put on some clothes...

We did not get the best maeks in exams, still we moved on to try harder...

We did not find the best people as friends, still we moved on with the friends who are best for us...

We did not get the love we ever dreamed of, still we moved on burying the pain...

We did not get the best jobs, still we moved on trying to find better ones...

We did not have the best house, still we moved on making our homes best one...

We did not get many things we desired and would have made life as beautiful as our dreams, still we moved on losing hope and trying to make things better...

Some move on with fulfilled dreams, some with broken dreams...

But always at one junction, even if we moved on, we are always struck back by those lost unfulfilled dreams...

We turned back, gazed a look at it, dropped a tear and again moved on...

Journey... that ever flourished...

Away... away from all the dreams...

Still... still standing keeping an eye on the highway...

Nowhere... nowhere lies my shoes...

Lost... lost the ways of my journey...

Lit... lit the path with every hope...

Like... like a candle in the wind...

Dark... dark cloud surrounds...

Stumble... stumble in every turn...

Close... close ever came to the destiny...

Mirage... mirage was also the destiny...

Drooped... drooped shoulders...

Gathered... gathered all possible positive energy...

Stood... Stood up again and marched ahead...

Loneliness... loneliness ever haunts...

More... more haunting is the memories...

Memories... memories that are gone, forever...

Forever... forever will it remain...

Tears... tears will only drop...

For... for the beautiful memories...

Always... always cherish with a lump, both in heart and throat.

moments!!!

I want to write yet again!!!!

Memories always linger around time...
It was hard, it was painful...
nevertheless, it was sweet and simple...
Journeyed to the very special lanes...
Mountained the rocks of hindrances...
Scaled the heights of loneliness...
Dived deep down the ocean of tears...
Cherished the air of cold and warm hugs...
Hard times and sweet memories...
Still I can't console this heart...
A small smile is always suffixed by loads of drooping shoulders...
Life has been very tough..
though I can't say I have faced enough..
I can't even say it made life beautiful,
neither do I smile wen I look back,
nor do I long for more...

I ain't a strong self to smile and say...
I lived a life full of woes and worries on my personal gound...
and yet display a smile that glows...
I would rather drop a tear
and fill the air with sorrows
Sometimes, It's not just a reason to celebrate..
but a moment to climb...