Tr@cE thE trE@suRe...

The Surrender- inspired from the Manipuri song with the same title.

2012-01-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

Whole world standing against you,
I also have enmity against you.

For few questions, stood right in front of you.
Was demanding for an answer, why did you lay your heart out to me?

Thus, have you been holding my memoir considering me as a bitch?

I am a married woman with a committed soul for the lifetime,
though never realised what love is.

Your footsteps and essence made my heart beat restlessly, unconsciously.

Couldn't hold back the feelings at your gentle behaviour.

Is it the bitch called love, people have been talking about?

Gratified with your response,
Charmed with your behaviour,
that loved my dear ones, and
the one who taught me love, as well.

There won't be anyone valued more than you,
come closer to me,
hold me close and tight
and let the feelings flow off me.

Leading life's joirney, go ahead towards you destiny.
'll be waiting for you to return, eying with lots of love.
Holdin tightly this poor soul, filled with your emotions, bearing all the hardness and pain, amidst all toils and troubles.

Hey! Kindful enemy...
Hey! Soldier of love...
Hey! Life of my soul...

A friend so wonderful...

2011-05-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

It was sad. It was painful. It screamed the heart out. It told the story expressed once. Damn, a friend shared his old story which he has kept as a secret for years. Someone to share a secret like this takes a lots of courage and trust. If I have to ever trust anyone, there wouldn't be anyone to whom I can share such things but this friend trusted upon us.

He had his worst phase of life. He bled his heart. He stood, stumbled and raised again. His story reminded me again of certain incidents happened. Leave it... This friend of mine has gained lots more respect from me. Well, he is a very bright student, very helpful. He never asks for anything but he's always ready to lend his hand for support.

He's not the only one who faces problems in life but he's one among the few who took a stand and still let nothing fall when everything was under the ground.

he cried his heart out once in the campus. Knew it could be something about a girl but never intended to ask 'cause he did not want to share.

Feeling so bad about his past and the happiness he lost. he is blaming himself for all the lost not his but his loved ones. Such a person is a gem, hard to find and rare to be searched.

me, being just a normal person who knows how to live a simple life and if nothing's right then just forget it, is feeling so tough today.

i wish he never falls for such a tragic phase again. To cheer him up and make him feel lively again will always be another motive...

Friends are what for other than making their friends happy. To let the tears flow but also to replace those tears with a smile back again...

Gone are the days...

2011-04-30T06:10:00.001-07:00

Seeing people around with their friends...

Sitting in groups sharing the last moments...

Lovers walking the last few rounds...

Steps, we ever cherished...

where people met and friends made...

A place we called 21 steps,

our small family ever celebrated friendship...

today it's deserted...

it's still filled with new people and other friends...

but the souls that put life to it,

are leaving the space empty...

It might rain, it might be sunny...

It might be crowded, it might be empty...

there's always a voice that lingers around...

when people around share laughs,

or celebrate their friendship...

I wished if life could have been that way ever...

for me and my friends...

When the lovers play with each other...

A smile always explodes but certain tears always dropped...

for the lovers I ever treasured...

A silence is all that I can express...

Everybody knows how it feels...

It's been a long time...

certain friends are not worth keeping in touch,

for their departure hurts like a knife across the heart...

Everybody was ready and knew,

that one day we have to bid farewell...

but when the moment arrives,

it's like holding the sands at the shore, tightly

not wanting to let it flow...

still it gets out of our grip...

losing and getting vanished amidst the sands at the shore...

A daily GOOD-BYE was very simple,

for it brought a HI the next day...

but this GOOD-BYE, never want to bid..

for it really meant, forever...

Few things I cared...

2011-04-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

I cared for none when I was born...

I cared only for my appetite as I grew up...

i cared only for my mother's love when I start recognising them...

I cared only for my parents, bothers and sisters when I realised they are my own...

I cared only for my family when I felt they are the ones who are going to be by my side whole life...

I cared only for everybody's fingers which I have ever hold on to, to walk...

I cared only for those hands who would feed me when I'm hungry and give a tap whenever I cry...

I cared only for the friends who sat next to me in my kinderagrten, with whom only I could talk...

I cared only for my benchmates when I realise we could share our lunches together..

I cared only for the few friends when I felt the need to be among them...

I cared only for the teachers when I realise they are going to make me topper..

I cared only for my school when I learned this is the place which will build my base...

I cared only for the people who would share laughter and joy when I remember them in my bad days...

I cared only for money when I become a teenager and need more pocket money..

I cared only for fun when I was a teenage and friends were all around...

I cared only for the examination results only when it's the time to be out...

I cared only for those vacations when I was going crazy for my studies...

I cared only for one girl when I realised she's the one I only love...

I cared only for her acceptance when I learnt she doesn't love me...

I cared only for a new beginning when I was down and broken..

I cared only for a survival when I was amidst an unknown crowd...

I cared only for my goal when I set it right and started marching ahead..

I cared only for few people's happiness when I realise I could be the reason to spoil their life...

I cared only for some betterment by me when I felt to do good for someone would let me feel better for my sins...

I cared only for making few friends when I spent most beautiful phase of my life with them..

I cared only for their better life when I realised I could be a reason for any fall back...

I cared only for my better future when I see my parents smiling whenever I succeed...

I cared only for my dear ones when I read their unhappy minds and losing grips...

I cared only for someone new when I suddenly fall from the present...

I cared only for her only acceptance when I saw the gapping distance...

I cared only for some hug when I see nothing's right and good happening around me...

I cared....

I cared..

I cared...

but only this much...

Move on...

2011-04-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

We did not get all our favourite toys, still we moved on and played...

We did not get our favourite food, still we moved on without starving...

We did not get a bicycle when we wanted, still we moved on and went for rides...

We did not get best looking clothes, still we moved on and put on some clothes...

We did not get the best maeks in exams, still we moved on to try harder...

We did not find the best people as friends, still we moved on with the friends who are best for us...

We did not get the love we ever dreamed of, still we moved on burying the pain...

We did not get the best jobs, still we moved on trying to find better ones...

We did not have the best house, still we moved on making our homes best one...

We did not get many things we desired and would have made life as beautiful as our dreams, still we moved on losing hope and trying to make things better...

Some move on with fulfilled dreams, some with broken dreams...

But always at one junction, even if we moved on, we are always struck back by those lost unfulfilled dreams...

We turned back, gazed a look at it, dropped a tear and again moved on...

Journey... that ever flourished...

2011-04-16T06:35:00.000-07:00

Away... away from all the dreams...

Still... still standing keeping an eye on the highway...

Nowhere... nowhere lies my shoes...

Lost... lost the ways of my journey...

Lit... lit the path with every hope...

Like... like a candle in the wind...

Dark... dark cloud surrounds...

Stumble... stumble in every turn...

Close... close ever came to the destiny...

Mirage... mirage was also the destiny...

Drooped... drooped shoulders...

Gathered... gathered all possible positive energy...

Stood... Stood up again and marched ahead...

Loneliness... loneliness ever haunts...

More... more haunting is the memories...

Memories... memories that are gone, forever...

Forever... forever will it remain...

Tears... tears will only drop...

For... for the beautiful memories...

Always... always cherish with a lump, both in heart and throat.

moments!!!

2011-04-03T22:25:00.000-07:00

I want to write yet again!!!!

Memories always linger around time...
It was hard, it was painful...
nevertheless, it was sweet and simple...
Journeyed to the very special lanes...
Mountained the rocks of hindrances...
Scaled the heights of loneliness...
Dived deep down the ocean of tears...
Cherished the air of cold and warm hugs...
Hard times and sweet memories...
Still I can't console this heart...
A small smile is always suffixed by loads of drooping shoulders...
Life has been very tough..
though I can't say I have faced enough..
I can't even say it made life beautiful,
neither do I smile wen I look back,
nor do I long for more...

I ain't a strong self to smile and say...
I lived a life full of woes and worries on my personal gound...
and yet display a smile that glows...
I would rather drop a tear
and fill the air with sorrows
Sometimes, It's not just a reason to celebrate..
but a moment to climb...

FAKED....!!!

2011-03-11T19:50:00.000-08:00

I faked a light, though I stayed in the dark...

I faked a rain, though my feet stands on a dry land...

I faked a morning, though my night never ends...

I faked a dream, though my eyes never closed...

I faked a joke, though it hurts me everywhere...

I faked a moon in the sky, though the dark clouds all over...

I faked a fun in the rain, though my umbrella leaks...

I faked a tear of joy, though the joy is way too far to see...

I faked a smile, though my shoulders are drooping...

I faked a long walk, though my legs are week enough to stand..

I faked a busy life, though my silence is the only way to live...

I faked, though I'm true...

Don't leave me at the shore....

2011-03-11T09:10:00.000-08:00

Some tides, beautiful from the far...

had been so close to it once...

it was dangerous though exciting...

Thrilling and pleasing..

It had tormented me for nowhere..

tides became waves, and I kept staring at those waves...

Far, far yet so far...

I lost the sight to those tides that have now become waves, steady ones..

Enjoying the blue sky and the rainbow...

Listening to the birds, chirping.

Humming to the tune of the wind...

I never thought another silence will be broken,

a wave arrives from far..

I never felt the change in the atmosphere...

I was still standing at the shore...

the waves have become tides..

but me? I'm still unaware...

the tide has engulfed me, yet I kept staring upon the sky...

the moment I tried to leave the shore,

I realised I'm no more in the shore.

I'm taken all the way to the middle of the ocean...

I'm drowned.

yet again...

It was so smooth and silent...

Just took me like a sleeping child...

I can't run away, neither do I want to...

but again...

I somehow feel this tide is gonna leave me back to the shore...

I just dreamt of getting drowned with the tide...

and getting all the way to the deep down the ocean...

Sometimes, we say nothing yet express everything...

Once drowned yet again...

A dull beautiful day...

2011-03-05T01:19:00.000-08:00

It was a long day...

Tiring, boring and exhaustive...

an evening drive back at home...

a dull face, lazy bones and a clumsy mind...

sites were so grey...

sky looks dim...

roads were grilled..

there was only dust in the air....

the driver started the music...

i started humming to it...

lying on my back...

lookin outside which has no beauty...

then!!!!

was it a miracle???

did a lightning strike me???

or did i just wake up???

or did i just sleep???

am i in a dream???

am i fantasizing???

dunno what just happened...

dunno who suddenly made it...

confused of the changes...

how and who???

anything happened?

I just smiled on my own, all alone...

huh!!!! :)

Everything looked so interesting now..

the breeze started flirting with my eyes...

my lips keep hummin to the tune of whatever song it is..

places started becoming memorable...

dry lands were gettin rained...

eyes were bright...

face was glowing...

dream as if i m leaving in a dreamland..

dunno what is it??

dunno who did it??

dunno what just happened???

but one thing i know...

her thoughts just struck my mind from nowhere...

unimaginable...

undefinable...

but, though, yet again... i feel some emotions again..

those that only brings smiles on my face..

a trip to the la la land....

A simple thing called LOVE...

2011-03-05T01:08:00.000-08:00

It is a simple morning...

the sky shines blue and bright...

the clouds carve themselves all white...

birds fly around the rainbow light...

the breeze chills the cheeks...

though feeling so warm with a smile..

dry leaves cover the grasses for a mile..

from far, the dewdrops shine like the river Nile...

the dawn is breaking...

the ray of hope is passing through the sky...

the orange giant ball breaks the dark night...

all smiles, beautiful and innocent, flying like a kite...

A simple morning, a normal day, a daily natural routine...

everything seems to be so beautiful, peculiar and enchanting...

the moment we feel, we are in LOVE...

Beautiful pain... sweet emotions...

Some new feeling of joy n happiness

2011-02-16T08:58:00.000-08:00

This feeling is so pleasant... I never thought I would ever feel so again...
The city which I hated to stay looked so beautiful today..
people were looking all so happy...
The moon was bright and the sky was glowing...
feeling so good today...
I feel atlast the happiness that was missing in my life is back...
I dunno Y I'mm feeling so..
But I think I really started to like you..
A long journey with some music and suddenly u struck my mind..
and I couldn't stop thinking about you without a smile..
songs were sounding so cherishing for me...
Dreamt about you n me together...
I feel like a newly blooming fresh bunch of roses...
This is the best feeling I have ever known...
Good Lord... that I get the opportunity to experience and feel it twice in a single lifetime...
I think... I realy feel to like you...

Valentine's Day

2011-02-14T03:36:00.000-08:00

Love is just a simple feeling...
A simple feeling that bounds no lines...
one can't hide...
one can't restrict...
Smiles expresses it all...
Lips go numb... but the world sees it through...
To hide is the best thing one does...
A dance step seems so beautiful...
On the pillow, burying all the smiles...
Mirror mirror... it even shy away...
To look good, To be next to the one...
Co-incidence... (intentional) meetings...
Sleeping with eyes wide open and still dreaming till the dawn...
Every love story seems to made for us...
A face that only brings smile making our heart pump like never before...
Some silly chats which seem to be the most interesting ones...
Friends might get fed up but still feel new to tell same old stories...
Writing notes about the one...
Making connections...
Special b'day gifts...
Blushes when the one is in the front and friends tease...
The world seems to be around us..
cheering for us...
God seems to be so kind upon us...
Tryin hard to word our expression...
yet not getting satisfied with any words...
Walking alone still carrying some smiles for everyone...
Some day.. gathered all courage to make it all real...
For few the fireworks worked.. the world rejoiced...
Life turned out to be the best it ever could..
Celebrations...
days months years go by...
Anniversaries...
Every valentine's Day...
Sweet memories were built again...
Castles were built with all memories as foundation, strong and firm...

There are few...
who had to face the grey side...
Tears rolled out... heart broken...
tried hard to hide but the heart explodes with the loudest scream...
no one heard but life shaked and turned everything upside down...
Everytime they moved on...
Dawn and Dusk...
Love has always been the most beautiful memory...
Nothing seemed to be better..
Even if life has been merriful with all loved ones...
A memory always screamed out loud, at times...

At the end of the day...
Everybody cherishes those moments, they start falling in LOVE...
Reminishing those fond folly acts...
Brings smile on each one's face, the most beautiful one...
Love brings sweetness and teaches the sourness of life...
Love knows no compromises but to stay content...
LOVE PRAYS FOR GOD TO BE KIND...

A letter never delivered.

2010-08-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

He took the pen and found his old shabby diary. It was a breezy cold rainy night. with the stars less seen and the moon shining bright but behind those dark clouds. he gathered and collected all the memories from various lanes. imagining himself collecting pebbles and shells from the beach, once he has left behind. he started penning those reminiscences one by one, with few strokes in the heart and some tears in the eyes. Consoling the heart and holding the eyes back, he continued writing those past but fresh like morning-dewdrops memories. Why is he writing after such a long period of time??? he asked himself. He was under such a consent and determination that these memories, he may or may not be able to share it anyone. If he could carve down it into those piece of papers, he could hand it over to the person, concerned. With a relief, he recollected the day-wise happenings that has ever bricked inside his heart. He smiled one more time: reason being that he'll be able to relief those silences of ages and made the person know how he felt the years down the lane. Atlast he wrote the last sentence,"this is how i have been holding back for years and I'm glad it's coming upto you".

Day after he took the letter, getting ready to hand it over. He never expected her to move ahead towards him and lead the way. He only dreamt of taking the memories and handing it over to her, for a contentment. He moved towards the area where she'll be hanging around. He usually uses to go and meet her. the moment was charming, he was adorned, smiles leading the way, he stepped ahead, step-by-step. He was reaching the shore. there lies a park bench, she usually sits. he saw her lying at her back taking some long breathes. She was looking as if she's in a deep thought. He didn't look deep into it. He came for a purpose, he has to complete it, determined.

He stood right in her front, smiling. he said,"hi". she looked up with a "hi". but what is it?? she had a drooping shoulder, eyes were uneasy and disheartening. He was worried. hold his letter behind. he sat down and took a look towards the sky and asked,"any problem?" She was not hesitant, she said,"tension". He was like oh-no-what-had-happened. He further insisted if it is somethng she could share with him or not. she was always comfortable with him and she never had any problem. with a shaky voice she said,"I'm confused and disturbed. I don't know what to do? I feel like being stuck in between two worlds." She, then, detailed the issue. She was in love with a guy. later on they got over with it and she moved on and found someone new. Meanwhile the other guy made a comeback and struck her life again. She was moved and disturbed all over again. She loved both of them, she suffered a lot for the previous one. She was confused with whom she should go ahead. He was in a dilemma. whether he should hand over his memories or leave it behind. He hold his breathe, took a moment of silence and listened to her. he wanted to express so many things, but he was taken aback.

He made her feel her own dignity. He didn't like someone playin with her. he always respected her and if somebody misbehaved he won't spare. he loved her so much that her tears were so precious for him. he looked deep in his eyes, he could see her love for the one who hurt her. He didn't want it to happen again. he made her realise that those who made you cry are not the ones to be loved. respect and caring are the two main ingredients of life. the one who portrays both is only responsible for the love that prosper. She was kind of consoled and determined now. She listened to him and decided to follow to his instructions. he was glad at one point that she respects him and listens to him also he could share her pain and made her relax. She was smiling now..

they were sharing jokes and fooling around. She was laughing and he was holding himself back. Now was the time to leave. It was a goodbye moment. He hold his letter tightly and scribbled. his sealed lips and moaning heart. Screaming deep down he couldn't bear it. Still everything was sealed with his smile and a comfort for her. Now she places a smmile on his face and took her leave with a good-bye wave. he kept standing, leaning on the bench, took the letter in front of him. he smiled and felt pity for himself.

HE realised he loved her from the moment she doesn't know what is love till now when she is confused between two people. She made him go all the way through various emotions. Still love prevails and emotions showers in hs heart....

Time:::: hardest thing to understand..

2010-08-19T12:44:00.000-07:00

He felt something he never liked. Feelings he could betray and not regret. But at a second glimpse over it, he felt, was it real?? is it gonna make me feel better??? is it craving ways for me to move ahead??? will it strengthen me to face the world??? he was all broken down, his heart clutched and scrambled. he pretends to be strong and taking a stand. he was trailing into pieces. he woke up one fine day, found himself light and nothing to worry. he said to himself "am I?". it was not a feeling, never a sensation he ever dreamt and wished for. never dared to go into the territory. He listened to songs of Good-bye's and still standing strong. He was like retuning his life. A new tune with a music of his own and a voice that would sound soothing and caress him as he did. He was all set for the journey. He tied his laces and tucked his shirts in. held up his head so high took the first step, confidently. He was all blank by now, nothing to worry and none to bother. A space making him feel efficacious from all his worries. It was atlast being somniferous for the melancholy. It was like a moment when the chicks learnt their first wing and ready to sweep away through the clouds. aimed to fly high and crumble all the barriers on his way to happiness...

But time:: this time:: it always played harsh with him and still it continued. This time it was an unusual change that time made in his life. time has always took things away from him and sobbed him intensely, but this time it was a vicissitude, time delivered something back to him at the moment when he himself left it back and turned away and stood still like a pledge. he couldn't return things and place them back. heart never gives up. his life turned around as a bird flying high got his wings cut. though the bird is back to his nest and is amongst his beloved, he would also have been murmerred for the fate that made his fly last. thus, He is now back to his ols space he loved the most but this time he is confused between whether to smile or wait for the sorrows yet to arrive. He knew things will never go right but this feeling even if it is better to drag it away his heart couldn't avoid once it showed up all over again.

He felt time playing so hard with him...
A moment of cry...
A sound of laugh...
A place of peace...
all he could find was...
only his heart...
for all the reasons...

DARK CLOUD BETWEEN ME AND THE MOON....

2010-07-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

2-3-4-5 days passed. Waited. Sent so many wish-to-be-replied messages. not a single was returned. couldn't do anything else than to sit back and smile, laughing on my own stupidity. haven't heard for days has been sounding like have been listening to songs with no tunes and music. A crowd around, friends all around, fun all the way... still under that cloudy, full moon night somewhere deep inside the air was missing the sound. the heart no longer rejoiced on any heartfelt jokes. knew that have to wait till that DARK CLOUD move away so that the moon could fill the sky with its soft shine, underneath the lovers glow. stars were twinkling making a laugh at me coz they could see the moon hidden behind that dark grey cloud, also they pictured me with my eyes flickering just like theirs.

hated the sky for making me wait and more was the hatred for that dark cloud who for what reason had to block the sight I have been enjoying.
2
3
4
5
days...... gone by......
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6th day evening....
all of a sudden the sky roared and giggled...
as usual took a look up...
this time there was a freshness in the air...
a simple look for which no matter what the sky gives...
there was something shining softly...
it shone underneath my heart too..
my lips carried the smile lost few days back..
loved the atmosphere all of a sudden...
the empty crowd seemed so much like a carnival... with all the trumpets...
air was still blurred... yet to feel the freshness..
the moon is there... but still not pictured in front of me...
always playing hide and seek...
knew it's right there...
is it the fog or still that dark cloud covering it...
whatever it is it couldn't stop the rays reaching my eyes...
this heart would reach out any further...
would dare to stand a top and stretch my hands reaching the horizons...
would feel both the dawn and dusk and its beauty...
would fill the air with warm warm freshness...
would cherish the world and lift the sky all over me...
smilesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss never lost is back.....

love story through SMS (chapter 4: distance that upgrades from scraps to SMS)

2010-06-11T04:19:00.000-07:00

It was the tyme for me to leave for vacation. I told,"there's no way we could be in touch like these for next few days". she was like,"if you wish we cud". i asked her for her number, i mean the phone number. she said,"i don't own one". I was like ,"oh!!girl, stop fooling around". I got annoyed. She was trying to convince me that she was not lying. I was not in a mood to trust her. She said,"I can't help you then". so i gave her my num and said,"call me if you want before I leave". I dropped my number. since that day, I was expecting a ring that rings the bell.

then I left with no calls from her. I hardly had any contact with her then. few scraps i get. we exchanged few. may be it was the first ever distance created between us. though we were never close to each other in person, it was really a distance. I hoped she's waiting for me to come back.

Then, I'm back. you know waht?? I was shifting my place to somewhere I can't access internet that often. We were so much into each other that itt has become like a habit for both of us to have a chat atleast once a day. So, I moved. I have already informed her that i won't be able to be in touch with her like i used to. So we have a gap in communication since scraps and IMs were the only means of friendship between we both.

It goes on like this for few days. "ping!", one day, on my cell phone. i saw,"1 message recieved". as usual I opened it. "an unknown number!". It read,"Hi! hw r u?", in that typical SMS lingo. below was written her name. "wow!". I laughed out loud. a smile on my face. I took the cell on both my hands and typed in my usual way,"hey1 hw ru doin?". It was so exciting... She replied,"it's my mom's number, I'm using it for the moment" and she also said"Reply me only when I msg". huh!!!! I was stunned. anyways, i thought"OK".

I realised I have come so far, now we are SMSing. I have her number, may be no one in college has hers may be except few of her friends. But we haven't even met. i felt myself to be considered really special.

love story through SMS (chapter 3: Making of a strong bonding)

2010-06-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

"Hey! you there?", it was the scrap we exchange whenever anyone comes online no matter the other person is on or not. Even while doing other browsing stuffs, my eyes always drove towards the right side corner of the screen. If she replies there always comes this pop up,"written a scrap". If I see it, I immediately refresh my page. There you go, our story takes the lead. Or else whenever I go online there used to be her scrap,"U online?". I look at the sent time. "Oh! 2 minutes bofore!", then I would make my lips curvy.

Daily we chatted for hours and hours, she revealed most of her secrets. Anything new happened to her she would always let me know. I asked her why can't we talk at college. She was pretty shy for it and was feeling insecurity. She is one kind of very conservative kind. She is also from a very strictly disciplined family. We were only exchanging scraps by now. One day she just happened to ask me my Yahoo! id. I was like," Ooo!!!". I saw her rejecting anyone asking for her Yahoo id and restricting them only to scraps and mails. We even played pranks but sweet ones. We both stayed till late at night just chatting with no such intentions. We were having enough of reasons to smile and leave behind if any problem as such.

We then started chatting in yahoo!. People in college never came to know about us. but few guys saw our scraps and presumed we had an affair. All my friends started teasing and pulling legs. She would never knew i know. We were like more than just some simple friends. By now I have come to know more about her than anybody else. She shared most of her issues. Even during exam we would never forget to ask each other,"how's it?, how did you do?".

Not being talked in person ever, we were such good companions. I don't know whether we are the best of friends or not but we both were having the best of our days. Just chat but more stronger bonding than any in person relationships.

Love story through SMS (chapter 2: The cyber connect)

2010-06-09T10:33:00.000-07:00

It was the days when I was also just another cyber-social-networking freak. When I thought of any means to get in touch with her, it was like next to impossible. She this bossy, lots of attitude and not-so-easy-to-approach kind of girl. It was a tough job just even to think of the ways and means to get to her. We had no common friends. We had no common classes. The only thing that's common in we both was that we both are uncommon to each other.

So I sat down one fine day in front of my computer, and browsed through my college's community page where all the students had registered. I searched for her name but couldn't find her. I thought,"isn't she even a techy or atleast a hi fi girl". because these days girls are so hi fi and knows more stuff than usual. So I again went back to the pages and searched one-by-one. Then i found a name in symbols.. It was kind of resembling her name. i went through her profile but htere was no pic. i thought it could be. I said to myself,"let's give it a try". I sent her a msg if it is she. Then it pinged back immediately. wow!!! i was like "OMG! this is going to be fun" and she replied,"yes, but do I know you?". She was curious. I then replied,"neither do you know me nor do I know you well". I told her about her performance and how it charmed me. After the introduction part, I added,"don't misunderstand me but I just wanted to know you". I think it was pretty decent.

She hesitated and was acting to a bit avoiding me. As time went on, I managed to maintain a clear profile of mine. Talking about her interest areas, the movies that I liked and few things which everybody knows but pretending as if only she knows. It was just exchange of mails and scraps. We started sharing many things. I bluffed lots just to get her attention. She was very smart but still very simple and sweet. I was enjoying it. We even started talking about few common friends. I had a friend who's with her for a dance competition. I talked about it and told things which she didn't believe I would know.

She was like OMG-this-guy-knows-many-things-about-me. but till now she didn't know who exactly I am. We were just cyber chat-mates. I told her my identity but she couldn't figure me out. We daily exchange mails and scraps, about the day and the happenings. We had a pretty well connect by now. A firm, stable relation, which I wuld call "A cyber connect"

Love story through SMS...(chapter 1: the first charm)

2010-06-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

It was just another day at college. wherever I go, I heard people talking about just one gal. "She's beautiful". I wondered,"who's she?". I was curious to know who is this girl. A friend of mine showed her to me. I said,"she!!! I don't find her that attractive" Then I came back with no worries. Again the same routine and daily mess. She was out of my mind and I had o sight over her.

Then there was this day when we had a function in our college. Me with some of my friends were havin a gala tyme. Then the program started. The MC announced the first performer, ofcourse the classical dancer to open the program. A girl dressed up in completely traditional attire, gracefully walking towards the stage. The jewelleries, bright and shining, the sound of her anklet and the smell of those flowers on her head, which actually didn't reach me.

Then the music started, she moved her feet and gracefully danced on a well choreographed steps."wow!!! that was really impressive", i said. I had no knowledge about classical dance but this one i really enjoyed. I was like bowled over by the dance and the dancer's grace and charm. I was not sure about who that girl is but I was sure she has to be the best. I asked my friend about her. he said,"bloody, idiot... she is the one I talked about". then i was like,"What???". I couldn't believe it. I was amazed and astonished.

Wandering mind

2010-06-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

It's not an early morning, but the moment we got up is always an early till we realise it's late. Jumped off the bed not to miss the BF. Knock! Knock! it's not a preferable BF. My friend said,"BF of this kind I must be used to". I said,"what!!", in a more of exclamation than a question. Oh this is not gonna be a gr8 day again. the grasses are still dry, air is filled with suckers ready to suck our body. Me not liking it. I just buzzed a "two lovers in love" statement. i kinda liked it, though. Lying on my bed, putting my head phones on but, "hey! where's the music?" I'm again playin and watching my first youtube uploaded video. I really liked it. "Wind of change" had a new meaning now... lyrics actually talks about soldiers but here i revisited and meant it for lovers. It's all bout lovers in love and their dreams and pain and wishes and hopes remained only as a dream and never fulfilled. the pain of getting parted still dreamin for a reason to hold on and found the only path where no one can part them. Oh.!!! I'm just loving it... Right many things are running in my head. Shall I start writing the report, shall I watch a movie?, shall I make another video?, shall read a novel??, Shall I keep writing on my blog?. I'm so confused.... wish someone could help me out....

A new experience...

2010-06-08T10:33:00.000-07:00

uhh!!! phew!!!! uploaded my first video in youtube... i personally loved it.. liked something after a long time... it is a story but it's opposite to the lyrics,,, but if you listen to the lyrics deeply.. you could corelate it... A song ny Scorpions, my personal favourite, wind of change. It has been summoned by a love story... I found the story deep heartening... watch it guys... hope you'll love it... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbdFndb3Ics

NEED TO LEARN SOME ENGLISH...

2010-06-08T07:43:00.000-07:00

I tried writing things. But everytime I wrote i found something missing. is it the essence or the inspiration??? i wonder where has it all gone. In the past 2-3 days i wrote many on my blog but I often delete it at one go, actually 2, by pressing Ctrl A and delete. There was these two stories titled,"The short short-love story", and "The curse of a blessing". I never found the rhythm anymore I used to. I even used to write poetries inside the examination hall at the back of the Question paper, in the classroom and even tune it. Words were beautiful and not only me my friends and teachers appreciated, often. I'm all lost now. Can't even figure out the perfect words for the ahh.... again i'm lost.. I cant find the word. OMG, I need some English course very soon. My vocab is leaking all around. Time to renew it. Stumble, fumble, crumble, mumble, these words ain't gonna help... i want something that doubles...

A morning no longer refreshing...

2010-06-06T21:42:00.000-07:00

I saw my watch and it was 5 in the morning. I said damn it's too late. Then I packed things up and shut down my laptop. Because i had to go. I had to go to sleep. the heat was still dehydrating those little amount of liquid i have. I swear this summer is no less then a vampire. Then without turning off the lights I took my head on the pillow and wished myself goodnight. After sometime, someone knocked on my door. "Did I open it??" coz he walked in. Anyways, I must have openned it. I had something which he needed. i didn't know what he was asking and am I suppose to say. I was all in my la la land. Dreamin' all the way. Then agan i saw one more face beside him. 'Who's he,now?" Whoever, they asked and I replied which i think have done accordingly. Even in my dreams i do things properly. Then again i went back to sleep. After a while, something woke me up. I couldn't avoid it. It woke me up as such i can no longer resist. OMG, it was the vampire, the summer. Though there were no dewdrops outside, I had dewdrops on my body. I went to brush then showered. I felt a bit refreshing. Put on some washed clothes, sprinkled some body powder to avoid the unwanted dewdrops. Then looked at the watch again, SHIT!!! it's 09:50. The canteen will be closed by 10 and i can't have my BF, i meant breakfast. I rushed to it. The door was closed. I though is it really closed. I peep into the door, the hook was not in. So I openned it and walked inside. The man sitting there murmerred something, i think he was complaining about me coming late for BF. but i gave a damn to it. I moved towards the counter, asked if BF is still there before i reach. the helper sitting nearby nodded his head. I moved a bit more towards the counter. I saw some white stuffs. There was no roti or puri. then I said,"OH NO!!! not again". It's dahi vada. I asked for the dry ones. it also wasn't there. i sneezed twice and i came back. No no no, i turned back then again i went to the stall and asked for tea, then i sneezed twice. Then like a defeated warrior i marched back to my den. I was thinking shall i go to the other canteen for puri or not but then I came to my room. I opened my lappy which was already on. maximum utilization of a lappy is always good for time pass and i love my shabby lappy. Checked FB, Orkut and Buzz. there was a comment from a friend about the link i posted on FB. I didn't understand wht he tried to mean but still i replied. Orkut had no updates. it was obvious, who'll update early morning that too last time when i shut down my lappy was at 5 and now it's 10. Buzz had an update from a friend who had seen RAJNEETI. I was like oh-atlast-he-saw. I thought about few other guys. wondered the strange life. then heard this FIFA 2010 theme by David bisbal feat. K'naan, "waving your flag'. No more. I can't resist anymore. I am finding it hard to type. I think I should eat. So now I'm goin to the other canteen. let's see if there's anything better to swallow in....

Walking down the lane of memories

2010-06-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

I was walking down the lane i once travelled, with memories in my hand and joy in my steps, i walked those streets. i turned left and i saw that once small, shattered and shabby stall in front of which i always pretended my bike to be broken down, but now even it has a fresh and new look. i walked further there again i saw that cross- road which always part me and made me feell like the end of the day. i was at the middle of the road and somebody blew horn so loud and i turned back startling, with a sorry-for-blocking look i stepped aside. then it reminded me the way she used to bump me from back and when i had that startling-who's-that look, she will laugh whole heartedly and will always say,"scared huh??". I looked down with a those-memories expression. i moved ahead and pass through that lane which leads to another street, it was the route i usually pass not because it led to another street but because she often walks out from that and i usually pretended not to see her and she always aknowledges me, and i stopped by and forgetting to explain why i was passing her lane we just fun around. then I giggled with very less sound, covered my mouth with my both the hands. Then suddenly I saw that gang of three gals walking with full of joy with two other guys having some nice time of their walk of few minutes. I had a flashback when we also walked with no worries listening to each other but not bothering what the other people are looking at. Now I felt people who saw us at that time might have had see-these bunch-of guys-how-fun-they-are kind of thinking. Again another smile slipped off my lips. then i sat down at a coffee shop at the corner, taking some rest and viewing the scenes around me and analysing how things have changed, being done MBA i was analysing the SWOT analysis of myself. Then I looked up and it was about to rain, the clouds started covering the blue sky just like that i felt my past to be shattering with the present scenarios. I consoled myself and said, anyways, it's OK. like a pat on my back like a positive stroke in terms of OB. I tried and pretended to feel good. I moved out from that coffee shop, paid the bill and wish this bill would bring some kind of luck and changes my life again. every new reason to excuse myself to smile, the sky is all covered with clouds and it seems like somebody is all filled with tears still can't flow it off, hiding it behind the eyes. Earth is so dry and eagerly waiting for getting soaked with rain so that few people can cry and the world can't see their wet eyes. I felt as if both the situations happening with me. i wanna cry but cant, i wanna enjoy but what's the reason. Then, I shrugged and walked out, took my old bike which was the only thing common in my past and present and the only who has seen my good and bad days, still being with me. there i go again feeling lost and defeated but still fighting with a hope of a new dawn with new season and new excuses to celebrate....... never say goodbye to the past, howpaiful it is, there is always an excuse to smile and get laugh....

Time and tide wait for none but memories resides deep...

2010-06-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

Joys are like dewdrops,
they vanish at the stroke of sunlight,
these moments too will vanish like dewdrops,
why doesn't some things just stay?

though those moments are vanished,
like the sandcastles at the beach,
destroyed by the waves,
that come lashing,
but the traces left behind in our hearts.

Woh lamhe we spent together will live forever and ever....

again few more moments...

2010-05-13T04:57:00.000-07:00

Still there lies the memories deep inside... life has only two moments, happiness and sorrows... i realise life is not sweet enough to make it beautiful... when we get lots of happiness like handful of memories, for sure it is to have sorrows waiting right outside the door. Surprises, it could make life sparkle like never before but if it's some kind of no good surprises it's worst... it's said ages of moments in love winds up just like that in a single glimpse. i even felt that moment. it's confusing was it ages or just a moment... is it that we feel the single moment to be like that of ages or those moments of ages just passed as a glimpse.. never realised it. but it made us so beautiful. lived every moment in the ages. always found soothing and sensational. the beats are always sweet...

2010-05-11T10:32:00.000-07:00

recently i hv cum across certain new songs which i really loved and suited me... few are just amazing.. and few r really kiddish but who cares wen the matter comes to feelings... this one song from KITES "zindagi do pal ki" it's just another close-to-my-heart song... very soothing and sensational.. another song from the very same movie "dil kyun yeh mera" again is so mesmerising and makes me go back to my best days... then few days back i heard this song by "LADY ANTEBELLUM" , need you now... i would say wow.. few lines i just fall for... "Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door. Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before. And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time." then i heard this song by this kid "JUSTIN BIEBER" "baby" again it's so catchy and amazing.. reminded me of those youthful days..... before these i heard few other songs from lakeer like "jee karta hai pankh laga ke udjaun mein" then "shehjade nikle apni sawari mein" and "sadiyaan saadiyaan".. wow!! i love these songs... then this old classic of " DEF LEPPARD" "two steps behind you"... just falling for these songs for the time being...and many more....

missing heart....

2010-05-01T11:52:00.000-07:00

Dreamt always for that which can never be fulfilled. I know it's hard and moreover it's impossible. She was almost mine... greatest regret i have ever had in my life. my world was all blessed and destined. today i cry but i know there's no value of these tears.. It'll fall wetting only my eyes and hurting my heart. Smile was the only thing i had in my life, regardless how difficult any situation is. Now, it's only smile that's missing in my life. Lots to share, millions of silence to be broken, thousands of words to be expressed. A journey to be travelled far beyond anybody's reach. Life's sorrows and pain to be shared, someone to lean on to who could lend me her shoulder not for me to cry but to let me feel when I have no one still she's there asking for nothing in return. I cried, cried, cried so hard and thought that the tears have dried and my eyes are left with no tears and heart with no feelings. Sometimes this heart resists and plays some game for fun. tried all possible to make a move ahead. every moment that shows sorrow and pain always make me feel lonely and this loneliness always takes me next to her, but she not aknowledging me. Was it my fault or the destinies unfair decision. People do hurt others and still get their love they dreamt of. I never took any move to let flow others tears. then why??? I just made one simple mistake, that was also on my own lost. happines which was all over me and were following me all vanished in one moment... everything drained out. life is all miserable... tears are all left with me... bearing the pain of the punishment for the wrong deed i never did. intended not to hurt but for someone's happiness... why these tears are not leaving me alone... today i only live in a hope and a wait for the gone. never gonna be back. still thinking how long do i wait?? Just listening to songs consoling me and healing my pain but none could let me feel better. Friends, how close they are, how helpful they are... none stick for more than two moments. i have my feelings left unshared. from the moment she's gone from my life, i have only loneliness as my constant partner. A cry no one could hear, a smile missing for long... It was for the first time I ever loved someone and really could say the last one. I have with me few sidekicks with me which i carry all the time and hope will be following me throughout my life, this silence, this loneliness, this wait and these tears...

2010-04-02T01:38:00.001-07:00

Though I ain't The One Loved Most, I Loved the most...

2010-03-27T13:11:00.001-07:00

2010-03-27T13:09:00.000-07:00

2010-03-27T12:33:00.000-07:00

A trip To Our Dream...

2010-03-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

WE Dream, Every Moment We Live,
We Live, Every Fantasy We Dream,
Every Fantasy, Every Moment We Dream
is Always The Reason To Live.
We Chase Our Dreams,
Some Are Realised, Some Are Slayed.
It hurts And IT's painful To See Our dreams Vanishing,
with No hope of a Dawn.
But If We Follow our Dreams,
regardless Of It's Attainment,
In the Journey, Our Dream Realises many Others' Dreams.
It Might Bring Tears In our Eyes
and melancholous heart
but Seeing Others' Eyes and HEarts Gay,
We feel Contended
And Always Carry A head going high
and A Heart With GRatitude And Humbleness
consoling The Spirit and Soul
And Making the Life Worth And Sweet.

You And Me...

2010-03-24T09:31:00.000-07:00

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

Dark Light...

2010-03-17T06:01:00.000-07:00

Cuddling on to the Memories,
Surfing in dreamland of Glories,
I am not aware of the Destinies.
Days were gone of Juveniles,
When matterless, I walked Miles
and still I tend to manage Smiles.
Soft and ponder in the Heart,
Lighting up the tenderness again in the Dark
All the way making a joyous Remark.

Days AT IMIS, My NEw DestinatiOn....

2010-03-15T11:55:00.000-07:00

It was a real srange place for me. Though I'm aware of every circumstances i had none whom i know. I landed upon this place, i was excited thrilled and enthusiastic but at the same time there was a feeling of loneliness and fear of messing up things. I, though, wanted to experience the hostel life, at a second thought there was this insecurity feeling of desirable companion. It Was really a SALMAGUNDI, a heterogenous mixture of various backgrounds. I stood in the middle wondering and aknowledging. I thought can i have my own space, will i be able to retain my own dignity.?? i was very conscious. i tend not to be carried away. day after day, time pass away and i started realising the comfort zone with few friends i never expected will come across. i really fall for them... It was least to my expectation for such a course and of such a place to find such a group of friends i tend not to forget. I was really happy and satisfied and contended on myself, i really felt the real essence of friendship after ages. i experienced wen i was wid ma school friends. Caring, humble, Funny, co-operative, Helpful, Emotional, sensitive, Adorable what else adjective i can add upon... I could fine rest in their arms, confident in their company, responsible for one and all, a hearty welcome each time... so nice and heavenly such feelings are... I, kinda guy, who don't remember friends once lost contact now having a sensation of fear and regrets if lost them... I have decided to stand for them all the time, no matter what they consider... i am obliged to do so... Smiles.... All the Way For you GUys... Sweet will the memories when i remember the days we spent together and tears will be the only expression..

It's Too LAte

2010-03-15T11:46:00.000-07:00

Now I Realise, I do I do I do.
Nothing COmes Out Of Blue.
Being Lived Years With No Clue
When Life Got A Reason To Renew,
There Was The Time I Couldn't Go Back To.

To and Fro of life....

2009-12-20T09:32:00.000-08:00

Finding a new place... Looking for a new face...
I walked miles... to get some smiles...
but there i found... Lots of tears around..
With hope in my heart... and leaving sorrows apart...
I stood on the verge... With the fear of submerge..
just to lend some glows... to let the happiness, snows...
then the night froze... back again with the pause...

my JulliEt....

2009-01-29T12:38:00.000-08:00

be it any kind, i don't care... she must look good.
be it any religion, i don't care... she must have a good heart.
when in public she must address me as hubby.
in privacy, she must call me, "hey boy".
when i'm naughty, she must rap my on head.
when i'm tired, she must caress me.
a little anger, a little softhearted, a little selfishness, she must possess all these qualities.
i need a PRINCESS who could make me understand myself.

2009-01-29T10:30:00.000-08:00

two MOMENTS of life...

2009-01-27T14:46:00.000-08:00

Just for two moments. the caravans of our dreams made a stop and then you went your way and i went mine. Just for two moments existed the story of our hearts. And then you went your way and i went mine. Was that really you or was it a luminous sunbeam? Was that you or was it a blossoming bud? Was that you or was that the monsoon of my dreams? Was that you or was that a cloud of happiness? Was that you or was it a full blooming flower? Was that you or did i find a beautiful new world? Was that you or was that just a fragrant wind? Was that you or were there colours everywhere? Was that you or were those shining pathways? Was that you or were those songs resounding in the atmosphere? Was it you I found, or was it Destiny? Was it you or was there magic in the air? Just for two moments. the caravans of our dreams made a stop and then you went your way and i went mine. Just for two moments existed the story of our hearts. And then you went your way and i went mine.

drOps of tearS.....

2009-01-22T15:22:00.000-08:00

oh... tears... why flowin without a pause..?? stabbin in every broken heart more painfully... love bound by religion, faith n other caste... why is there any kind of differences in love? isn't it made for us.. it's almighty's will so to say and culture's deal for the world... even if the colourful man made beauty able to demolish the nature, oh.. cult, will u be able to cool down this lava of pain from the heart bcoz of losing my love?? even if u r able to stop the driftly flowin current, will u be able to stop this tears flowin without anybody's impact...??

aT lAst.............!!!!

2009-01-22T15:08:00.000-08:00

oH...iT's beeN a lOng timE sinCe i updaTE ma bloG.... juz thOt of upDatin maselF here.... so m just wiShinG foR a bright Future for maself, which every1 love to dream of... life changes as always a new chapter do... but still it continues the fantasy... still lOoking for thE one i hv never seen.. waiting for her to arrive in ma colorful dreamland n brighten ma life with all her showers of love... like soft and tender flower she'll be.... bright like the sun but still calm like the moon... oh... waitin for her to arrive.. holding this light source of ma heart to see her comin..... oh.. it's making all ma senses senseless... wow.. it's such a nice fantasy, a dream tht melts down ma heart.. oh.. i feel so warm... love to love tht someone spl.....

4 sOnS...!!!!

2008-11-26T15:26:00.000-08:00

These 4 gents go out to play golf one sunny morning. One is detained in the clubhouse, and the other three are discussing their children while walking to the first tee.
"My son Kent," says one, "has made quite a name for himself in the home-building industry. He began as a carpenter, but now owns his own design and construction firm. He's so successful in fact, in the last year he was able to give a good friend a brand new home as a gift."
The second man, no to be out done, tells how his son began his career as a car salesman, but now owns a multi-line dealership. "Norm's so successful, in fact, in the last six months he gave his friend two brand new cars as a gift."
The third man's son, Greg, has worked his way up through a stock brokerage, and in the last few weeks has given a good friend a large stock portfolio as a gift.
As the fourth man arrives at the tee, another tells him that they have been discussing their progeny and asks what line his son is in.
"To tell the truth, I'm not very pleased with how my son turned out," he replies. "For 15 years, Chico's been a hairdresser, and I've just recently discovered he's gay. However, on the bright side, he must be good at what he does because his last three boyfriends have given him a brand new house, two cars, and a big pile of stock certificates."

mY GirL aNd I.....!!!!

2008-11-26T13:50:00.000-08:00

My girl.... What should I tell you all about her...?? She's crazy, so... unique, she got a new attitude every single time...
Flowers shower.. people go crazy.. wherever she goes...

If she's displeased and angry then she is, but then she brings back her smile on her lips and get along all by herself..
If she's quite so she is then she'll start humming all by herself all of a sudden, some sweet tunes...

How should I say how she is...?? What I can say is she's just like me.... Now-a-days, all those moments shared with her, dunno why, comes in my dream... As I remember the moment I parted from her, what should I say, my heart trembles and pains... Now I'm here she's somewhere, but all my blessings there for you, oh my love...

oH... mY DeaResT fRienD....

2008-11-22T15:35:00.000-08:00

If u r there then even the cris-crossed roads, jumbled words seemed to be straight.
If u r there then even the fake promises, enemies intention seemed to be real..
The one who generates stars in the heart it's just YOU.
The one who makes me smile though weepin, it's YOU.
Don't know why but my heart knows if u r there then i'll be ALRIGHT.
Whole world is on one side and we are on the other side.
All the happiness running all the way but we are havin it all the way.
But wen u smile for me the world seems alright.
This life of mine seems to flourish in a moment, dunno why..
This friendship of these few moments, dunno why, seems to be known..
coz wen u smile for me this world seem alright.
Wish if this moment stuck here itself, but dunno why..
DUNNO WHY THIS HEART KNOWS IF YOU'RE THERE THEN I'LL BE ALRIGHT...

hAan jI...!!!!!!

2008-11-21T12:45:00.000-08:00

GimMe thiS onE.....

TakE thiS one....

wEn mY eyeS met wIt a Gal's i Said,"hAan jI"

wEn thE gaL saId,"bE minE" i Said,"hAan jI"

sunDay i gAve heR a rinG...

monDay wE maRried...

shE asKed,"wIll yA lovE mE wholE throUghoUt thE liFe?" i Said," hAan jI"

wE weRe sO hapPy

thEn aRrivE tueSdaY, onE dAy

camE baCk homE, i FounD her diSplEaseD stanDing At the RoOf..

wiTh a fEar i asKed wHy R u upSet??

thEn thEre'S thE bullEts shOoting aLL ovEr mE

"HOW CAN YOU FORGET MY BIRTHDAY..!!!!!!?????####"

Ooo......

bEggeD her For ForgivEness oN wednEsdAy

thuRsdAy She saId,"it'S noT enOuGh"

fRiDay She MadE mE to pRomiSe. i SaiD,' haan jI"

oH nOooo...!!!!

sAtuRdaY, SundaY

alwayS aN unHapPy daY

wHerE am i TraPped???

thEse faIr aRms aRe likE kiLlinG mE

dAyS... mOnthS.....

tOok AwaY mY hApPinEsS

haRd To liVE..

i hAvE tO beAr All theSe painS wiThoUT complAiniNg

DemoCrAcY in IndiA, husBanD'S pItiFul liFe herE

hEre wiVeS rulE... evErboDy saY,"HaAn jI"

hAan Ji.. HaAn jI...

it'S sucH a swEet, whOeveR eatS regRets...

suCh a CheWing Gum, WhoeVer Chews Won"t bE ablE to takE iT ouT..

soMEonE eXplAin To EveRyonE

mArRiAge iS deVasTatiOn... hAan jI..!!!

nO mArRiaGe.. nO mArRiaGe...!!!

hAan ji.. hAan ji..!!!

a TruE lOve StOry......

2008-11-19T15:15:00.000-08:00

There was a gal who loved a guy.

She never felt this way before. She walked upto him one day and told that she loved him. That guy looked overwhelmed. He found it so fascinatng so charming but more than that he felt it very obvious.

The girl was waiting for his response. The guy looked down shedding his tears. The girl felt unnoticed and was shocked. She couldn't say anything but she kept staring on him.

He looked up and said "Do you really love me?"

Immediately, with such a bright eye, the girl said,"yes!!!"

She asked if he had any earlier crush....

The guy said that he loved a girl to whom he had never expressed. He started wetting his eyes, the girl took his hand and consoled him with a hug.

The girl shed off the tears from the guy's eye. She said everything will be fine. She couldn't ask any further about his response to her proposal. The guy wipe off the tears and looked back to the girl. Now he asked, "Still, do you love me?". The girl said love never changes for any reason.

She said,"If you loved that girl and still you love her then my love for you doubled. Love never get lost by realising it's emptiness. Love is always meant to fill the emptiness."

The guy smiled. Seemed as if he's feeling a bit better. He took her hand and said,"Thank you".

The girl was under a huge depression still she managed to return hm a smile. She couldn't emphatize for him. She still stood there holding his hand.

After a while of complete silence, the girl asked ,"Are yo okay, now?"

The guy said,"not yet". He said now he wanted to express his emotions to that girl. She couldn't control herself this time and she shedded her tears. She turned the other side and shed her tears. When she turned back, she was surprised, shocked, overwhelmed and touched.

She saw the guy kneeling down with folded hands offering her a smile. The guy expressed with tears filling up his eyes," It's you..!!!" The girl went speechless. She also kneeled down with tears in her eyes.

Now both hugged each other passionately. They seemed to be lovers going to leave each other forever. Though they found their love ones, they both didn't celebrate instead hold on each other for a long time.

Such, the girl got the love of her life and the guy found the moment he was waiting for. True love speaks without words.

A StorY oF mE bEinG thE gREateSt FoOl...

2008-11-17T16:38:00.000-08:00

It happened yeaterday...

After a late night sleep, i got up at 11:30.

I had to go to get the bulletin for XAT, MBA entrance exam.

After having ma lunch, i dressed up and rushed towards the bank.Of not being slept properly last night, I was feeling damn sleepy.I caught ma eye in the bus, didn't know wen the bus passed ma stop.when i got up i was a stop away.

In a hurry i got down the bus, took an auto and headed towards the bank.I didn't know the location exactly.

Though, luckily, i got the bank without any pain.I got the bulletin and was about to leave home.

I thought of getting an application form for another exam.Had to go to another bank (SBI). One was there next to the bank from where i got the bulletin.i went in and asked for the form, the employee told i gotta go to the main branch.

I came out in search of that main branch of that bank. Since i had no idea about where exactly it is, i went back to that bank and asked the lady again. She told me the location, somewhere opposite to the bus termminus. When i went there i found none. i walked for few more distance and got another bank of the same branch. i went in and asked the lady sitting over there about the form. she had no idea about it. She told me to go to that previous bank i went. I told her the story. even she didn't the address of the main branch of the bank where she's working. She took an address book and i got the address from it.

With that address i went out again in search of that bank. I asked an auto driver. He told go to the right of the traffic signal then turn to the 3rd left street. The signal was nearby,so i went by walk. when i went in to the area he told, i couldn't find any bank. I was wondering here and there. then i asked for the address to another guy, he told me to go to another main road, which i was able to get into my sight. When i reached the main road, i saw another branch of that bank. I went inn and asked for the form, a lady was there. seemed like she was having her lunch. When i asked her, she told me to come tomorrow since today was holiday. When i asked if i can get the form from there, she told, she didn't know. i walked by again, i then asked another auto driver, he showed me the way. The way he showed me it looked pretty close now. So i went by walk. still, couldn't find it. i went for rounds again. my legs were all paining walking for almost 5 kms.. Atlast i got the street, but couldn't see the bank.

I asked one guy and he showed me the bank. Irushed towards the bank. It was locked but people were working. I asked the security to open it, he asked me for the purpose. when i told him the purpose, he told there's no forms available. So he asked me to go to another main branch.

So i came back with so much of frustrations..

I was so tired, i had to go for my coaching class also. As soon as i reach home, i took a cup of tea, sat for 5 mins. then i started for the class. There also as soon as i reach there, i checked for my classroom.Our batch code was not there. When asked, they told there's no class today.

I felt so tortured. I was so tired. Couldn't take anything in.

I wallked back, get on to an auto and came back home.

At night i felt so fooled and frustrated.

wasted a lots of time and energy.

i became such a great fool by then.....

CrAzZZZy LifE....

2008-11-17T16:17:00.000-08:00

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